ILYA

info julian he/him transmasc t4t white. infj, 2w3, sx/so, capricorn

+extended

byf notices / informatives

cosplay related -- I'm currently in education and will be busy with work on and off, so posting will be infrequent. I prefer to stick to routines that are comfortable and doable for me.

my posting may lean toward interests/hobbies rather than personal, or vice versa.

(for mutuals) I'm incredibly mindful about who I connect with in terms of the social, and I would prefer not to enable forms of parasocial engagement; I cherish returning respect or care.

^++In any context, I'm sensitive and aware of who I'd prefer to share social spaces with. **with larger audiences, though, the inability to manage that becomes overwhelming.^**

those who align with: terf/transmisogynist, neoliberal/centrist/right-winger, truscum/transmed/bioessentialist-fascist, antisemitic - ideologies-: I'd prefer do not interact.

practices, engagements post/anti-psychiatry + psych-critical studies, mad studies, psych-behavioral analytical-theory readings through the viewpoint of "madness"

misc
religious imagery/themes, eroguro, antiques, entomology, historical & traditional clothing, horror, rabbit & fish motifs, deep sea creatures, angels (seraphim), my OCs

JULIAN / ILYA
18 (dec 22), highly sensitive neurotype, madperson, gender noncompliant

I embrace the label transmasc, and am at ease with the relation it has to my identity, -- however, my transmasc identity is incompatible with strictly adhering to the closest-relative term, and leaving it to others interpretation.

to shed light on my identity, I identify as male in ways relative, but, I also, am gender-noncompliant, & essentially identify as genderless, with no actual formative resonation to the enforced gender binary. I.e., I do not believe in the gender binary as an affirming identity.

to further describe my relationship with gender/gender-related systems, etc. I'm a postgenderist who finds solace in the absence of gender / gender systems, altogether.
I am okay with neopronouns being used to refer to me, such as: xe/xem, nie/nym/nyr, sie/hir, hy/hym, vam/vamp.

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I criticize standardization/normalization of systemic realities we live under, & I care deeply for sensitive, non-authoritative, ways of being & existing. I try to express and share my beliefs/ideals (beliefs which core values are caregiving, wellbeing or safety, for each other and the self) with those whom I share social spaces with. it is vital to me to make others feel safe.

animanga
ensemble stars, houseki no kuni, chainsaw man, soul eater, owari no seraph, castlevania, innocent, dorohedoro, madoka magica, NANA, kamisama kiss, kimetsu no yaiba, mononoke (2007), children of the sea, Hayao Miyazaki films, black butler

tv/film/musical
stranger things (steve), supernatural (sam, dean, their familial bond), alice in borderland, the last of us, the cabinent of dr. caligari, cabaret (1993/8)

games
genshin impact, identity V, fire emblem: three houses, final fantasy 7, bloodborne, resident evil series, the last of us, castlevania
-- IDV - mains: barmaid, painter, psychologist
-- GENSHIN - main: wanderer (c6 r3!)